I will, to be like you – but I cannot. I will to be like your son, yet I cannot. I will myself to love, yet I cannot. I try to follow your precepts and the flesh constantly fights against it. I try to listen to your voice and the world drowns it out. I try and I try and I try.

Yet, with all the trails and tribulations that go through my life – I try it all over again in my strength and fail again and again and again. I have come to the conclusion that the universe is closing in on me.

But – I cry out unto you and you hear my voice. I cry out unto you and you bend me an ear. I cry out for you and there you are beside me – holding my hand and keeping me stable so that I do not fall over.

My insistence, in doing it myself, comes to an end. My insistence of trying to be righteous and holy in your sight comes to an end. I come to the sad realisation that I alone am a sinner and I fall short of the glory of God, just like all mankind does in your sight.

Yet, in your grace you waited upon my cry. Yet, in your love you held out your hand. Yet, in your desire for fellowship – you reached out and healed my heart and gave me a heart of flesh to love and behold you as you really are.

Your Holiness is beyond me. Your love is without measure. Your righteousness is without confrontation. You are the one and only. You have created all. You have said that man is your desire and you have shown him your love through the sacrifice of your only begotten son – Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

Can anyone compare to your marvellous ways. Can anyone say unto you that you are not Holy and Righteous in all your ways. Can anyone say that you are not the God of Gods? Can a man, who is a mere wisp in the time of the universe say unto his creator – “I know you are not for I believe that you are not, therefore, you are not”

Man in his foolish follies continues to walk in his blind ways denying you, saying in his heart “There is no God” yet in his loins he knows that this is not true but in his blindness and hard-heartedness he continues in his paganistic ways.

He continues to worship himself. He continues to worship the things he possesses. He continues to worship the things in his life that bring him pleasure and relief from his daily drudgery.

Man is a fleshly beast and cannot know the things of God ,unless they are revealed unto him, for his spirit is dead unto the most high God. His spirit has been condemned, oh so long ago. His spirit died the death and he is now a walking dead man.

Man’s spirit is antagonistic towards the spirit of God, for in him is not the son of of man but the son of perdition, for he is now the God of this world who lead all men astray and man so loved the lie that they carried on in their blindness even when the facts pointed to the simple truth of the cross.

That is why – oh my Lord, that I – when I fall into the flesh – I rebel against your word. I rebel against your thought, for in me is sin and sin is at enmity towards you. Sin hates the son and the son hates the sin.

In your loving kindness you allow me to come back to your cross, day after day – hour after hour, and you allow me to fellowship with you again and again and again – even after my continual failures and all the fallen times.

Thank you, dear God of Righteousness for allowing me to come to you via grace, for I have come to understand that by grace alone am I saved and the the belief on your Holy son Jesus Christ of Nazareth who died on the cross for me and all mankind and in him is forgiveness of sin and life eternal.

Thank you dear Son of the most High God for your gift of grace and the gift you have bestowed on those who have believed on you – the wonderful and beautiful comforter whom you have sent to keep us sealed unto the day of redemption, to keep us in your word, to keep us in the race so that we may appear Holy and washed on that great and wonderful day of your return.

Thank you for your seal of salvation and thank you for your miracle of miracles that has been bestowed on all those who have believed in him by faith. Thank you for the miracle of miracles that you have given unto all mankind. Thank you for the miracle of miracles that has been given unto the world.

Thank you for the miracle of miracles that has been praised and worshipped throughout time and by the saints of old. Thank you, thank you thank you. The miracle of the virgin birth on that blessed day not so long ago in the stable in a manger in the town of Bethlehem.

The day was proclaimed throughout the annals of history and written by all the prophets of God, who desired to look into this but could not, for it was not yet time for them to know the meaning or the times of the Prince of Peace and his redemption. They prophesied and yet did not understand.

They dreamed dreams yet could not have complete understanding. They saw – yet not completely. They waited on the grace and the promise of God and they believed in faith knowing that God would come and recover them from the death they that would die.

God gave his son unto a dying word as a testament of his love. A testament of his love. As a testament of his love, that he would give his only begotten son unto a sinning world and allow them to destroy and to kill his only begotten son so that all mankind could be redeemed and once again have fellowship with the most High God.

A testament unto a dying world of his grace and compassion he had towards all mankind, young, old, not born, just born and those dying and those dead in the belief of the saviour and the coming of the Holy one.

No one, no where can and will deny the love and the grace that God showed towards all men. No one can say that it is Gods fault that they were not saved or that they were not warned for all men will be given a chance to repent and then the end will come.

No man will glory in the flesh in the face of the most High for the sin of the flesh will burn in the presence of the most high for sin has no place in the sight of God for it is a abomination in his sight and he will not allow it to exist for eternity.

Sin has been judged, death has been judged, sickness has been judged and it has been conquered in the sacrifice of his son Jesus Christ of Nazareth so that all men may once again dwell in the house of the Lord and have fellowship and love one another as it was in the beginning and as it will be in the time to come.
He that has an ear let him hear. He that has eyes let him see and behold the coming of the most High. He that has knowledge let him think as if he has none for the knowledge of men is foolishness unto the Lord of Hosts.

Have faith in God and his sacrifice unto all men and live in fellowship – one with another for all are brothers in Christ and all are saved by the grace and spilling of blood of the son of the most High God for the salvation of all mankind.

Peace be unto all mankind in the time and the world to come. Amen and Amen – let it be so

Why is it that when I ask you questions I get confused to whether it is your voice, my voice or some other voice? Why is it when I lift up my voice to you I get confused about the answer? Why is that I cannot overcome my flesh by myself and without the help of your spirit?

Why is it that – I as a man do things that I do not want to do yet, you as a gracious God, will forgive every transgression no matter how vile and disgusting from the simple lie to the abomination of your name and all you stand for?

Why is that man will try and stand on his own two feet and trip over them and fall head long into the abyss and still not call on your name? Why does man not contemplate your greatness and wonderful character before they fall asleep at night?

Why does not man, in the morning, wake up in the graciousness of your spirit and give you glory for the past nights sleep and give you glory for the rest of the day that he may walk and talk and do your will as you would have him do?

Why will man in the morning, roll out of bed, look in the mirror and blaspheme your name and curse the very existence of your son – just because he had a bad night the day before? Why does man have the right to blaspheme your name and to shake his fist at you and blame all things upon you?

Why have you given man the choice of choosing his own destiny? Why have you allowed man to fall? Why have you allowed Lucifer to rebel and to have dominion over the earth for a time? Why have you allowed death and destruction to coexist with man in this world as we see it today?

Why have you said to man go and do as you may but one day you will have to pay at the judgement hall? Why have you said – man will be judged for all things – said, done and thought? Why have you said “that all things will be exposed and yelled from the rooftops for those things that were done in secret”?

Why do you not answer my questions? why do you ignore my queries? Why will you not look down upon my written words and say something to me about them or even inspire an answer? Why, Why, Why?

Can you not hear me? Can you not see me? Can you not feel the anger in my heart? Can you not see the hurt? Can you not see the pain? Can you not see the anguish? Can you not see? Can you not see? Can you not see?

Job, your righteous servant, questioned you at length and asked many things of you? He asked of things that perplexed him. He asked of things that he had no understanding. He asked of things that vexed him.

You answered him with his queries and you also rebuked him for some of his other thoughts and intentions. How come you cannot do the same for me? Why cannot you not say to me? ” It is this way or it is that way”Why cannot you come down from your throne of grace and give your servant some answers to the queries of this world.

Answers that have been lined up within my heart. You know all hearts. You know all minds. Nothing escapes your notice and nothing is ignored by your eyes or your mind. You see all things, you know all things, then why have you created us to suffer prior to the great coming of your son Jesus?

Why have you put in place redemption for a fallen man? Why did man have to fall? Why did Satan have to fall and rebel. Why, oh why, oh why? My questions are many but I have not received any answers. My questions burn brightly before you, yet you have decided not to answer them. Why is this?

Am I sinner not worthy of your attention or merit? Is your eye gone blind? Is your hearing gone deaf? Is your sense been dulled? This, I cannot believe and will not accept. You are the one true living God. You are the creator of all. You are the great I AM.

Response to the Queries:

Have you not created man for your pleasure? Have you not said unto man “Be fruitful and multiply” Have you not given dominion of all things unto man, yet man in his own ignorance gave it all away. Man in his own search did not want to commune with God even in the beginning “for the flesh is weak but the spirit is willing”

Man in his own folly decided to rebel against your foreknowledge, man in his own pride decided to choose the separation from the eternal God of creation. Man in his disobedience brought death into the world. Man in his own lack of self respect decided to commune with the devil instead of the living God.

He gave all things unto him that were given unto him by the living God. Adam and his wife sinned woefully on that day. A decision that has racked pain and grief throughout the time man lives on the earth. Adam and Eve first sowed unto there own lusts and then sinned against the living God – being fooled into thinking that they also could become as I, the living God of all eternity.

By failing on the simple task I had assigned, they both sowed despair and destruction into and onto the world for a time. I am Holy, therefore, my people must be Holy. I am true, therefore, my people must be true. I am honest, therefore, all my people must honest.

I love, with all my heart, from here to eternity, I love, with all my heart, all of my creation. I love, with all my heart, all my creation – that I have given them the freedom of choice., I have given all my creation the freedom of choice. I have given all my creation freedom of choice.

I want a nation, a people, a worship that is real and felt. A people, a nation of followers who have decided to forsake all for my sake. I want a people, a nation who will attest to my love and my divine character.

I want a people a nation who will look upon my face and bless it and worship and say that what I have done for them is exactly as it should have been, that he alone merits the glory that he alone merits the glory honour and praise.

I have made it so that a human in his own capacity and in his own ways can never fulfil the covenant that I have made with Abraham and his descendants. No man can glory in my presence and no man will glory in my presence for he is but stubble and will be burned by the holiness of my presence.

Man cannot and will not be in my presence without the sacrificial lamb that I have prepared since the beginning of time. I have given this suffering over to myself. I have given this task over to my son who dearly loves me and loves all things that I say and do.

He has proved this to me in his sacrifice. He has done as I willed and the sacrifice is once and for all mankind – Once and for all. – No other sacrifice is needed to enter into the presence of the most high.

It is done and completed. A work that he alone could accomplish. A work that he alone could have accomplished – no other name has been given under heaven or in the earth to enter into the forgiveness of the son and the redemption of the lamb. No other door will be opened, no other way will be tolerated, no other means or sacrifices will be accepted. No other way will be allowed. Full stop.

Can man not see this? Can man not sense this? Can man not confess to this truth of truths – that Christ alone is the one and only saviour given unto man – no other, no other, no other.

Man will question my ability, man will question why I have done this, man will look upon the throne of grace and say it is utter foolishness. Man does not understand – for it was not given unto mere men to understand the sacrifice. It was not given unto men but only through the spirit the knowledge of all things Godly and all things Holy and all things that are comely in my sight.

Man in his flesh will rebel against the ordinance of God for he is in sin and lives in sin from the day of his birth until the day he dies, unless, he accepts the gift that I have supplied. The gift that I have given freely, the gift that I have supplied to all mankind for a one time price and payment and atonement of all sin and transgression from the beginning of time to the end of time.

Man is atoned if he will accept the gift. Man will be forgiven if he accepts the gift. Man will be allowed to dwell in the place of the most high if he accepts the gift and the sacrifice and recognises the grief and the pain that he was put through to atone for the sins of all mankind.

Man will see through the prayers of the saints, man will see through the conviction of the Holy Spirit, Man will accept the coming of the Lord or he will die in his sins.- Death will come once then comes judgement and my judgement will be final and will be forever.

No man can say and no man will say I am unjust – for I am a just God and my judgement is just. My thoughts are just. My actions are just. I am not a man that I should change my mind, I am not a dead God that does not hear, see or feel. I have not been created by the hands of men or can be worshiped as a mere creation.

I have created all. I have formed all. I have put the earth on its axis. I have laid the blankets of the heavens for my sheer delight and for my sheer pleasure. All this I have done for my enjoyment and for my benefit. I have created man for my pleasure and for my enjoyment so that we may dwell together and commune in truth and in holiness one with each other and one with all.

Together we will rule the universe in truth and righteousness. Their will be no more sorrow, their will be no more pain, their will be no more death or disfigurement. All things will be new. For death will be finally destroyed and cast into the ever burning lake of fire – man will no longer taste death but dwell with the most high and rule and reign in eternal righteousness.

But before all this will take place – pain will come upon the planet earth, death, destruction, dishonour and more pain. For he that hates the precepts of the one and only living God knows that his time is short and that his condemnation is at hand.

In my mercies, I have shortened the days of desolation or not one man nor one woman would be left alive and standing on that final day of destruction. He that has an ear let him hear. He that has an ear let him hear. He that has an ear let him hear what the spirit says unto the church. Let them listen and hear all the prophecies of the Lord thy God.

Let them try the spirits for many deceptive devils will enter and pose as false profits and try to fool the very elect. Try the spirits and see if they are of God. Try the spirits for they will be deceiving spirits that would try and fool the flock of the living God and turn them into desperate lambs – running to and fro and listening to all the lies of the evil one to create confusion and despair within the rank and files of the church of the living God.
Listen to the spirit as it prophecies unto the church, listen to the spirit as it guides the church in the last days, listen to the spirit as it prays and solicits the Lord thy God. Listen, listen, listen. Listen for all will be told unto those that love the Lord thy God and all will be told to those who love the son and wait with anticipation for his return.

Listen and pray, Listen and pray, Listen and pray for that is the will of God for those that love him. Amen and Amen.